Mom Wants A Diabetes Cure

Friday, November 30, 2007

Chipping Away At The Keystone Of A Mother's Heart

At 3:30 in the morning, Brendon came to our bedside and nudged Jeff:

"Dad, I'm sorry to wake you up. I'm a 44."

I remained sound asleep and knew nothing of this.

Brendon knew.
He had no choice.
His body was telling him something was wrong.
And woke him up.
He went downstairs to the kitchen.
Tested himself.
Came upstairs.
Was sorry about waking his father.

While I was asleep.

My son shouldn't be burdened with this.

I hate that I can't take this from him.

I hate that he can never rest.

I hate that he has to endure

while I sleep.

Hate chips away at the keystone.

My heart is weak.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,

And miles to go before I sleep,

And miles to go before I sleep.

18 Comments:

  • That is why.... He is superman!!!

    Love,
    superman's dad

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11/30/2007 6:58 AM  

  • Aw, Shannon. My heart is heavy reading this. Holding back tears. It's so hard. So glad he woke up and knew what to do, and was with it enough to do it. that's hard when you're low. poor little guy. and how hard it must be for you to know you can't fix it.

    By Blogger Amylia, at 11/30/2007 7:00 AM  

  • Oh Shannon, I feel your hurt. I am so glad he woke up. I totally agree with Jeff, that IS why he is Superman. =) Just know I am sending huge hugs your way. It is a long journey and I am so glad we can all be there for each other.

    By Blogger Vivian, at 11/30/2007 7:58 AM  

  • I woke up this morning to a tell-tale sign of a low in the middle of the night. Cup with remnants of sugar and juice. sigh.

    (Jeff's comment made me smile, though.)

    By Blogger Rachel..., at 11/30/2007 8:35 AM  

  • What a brave, awesome kid. "sorry to wake you" is heartbreaking.

    By Blogger Carey, at 11/30/2007 9:04 AM  

  • Carey,
    That's the statement that triggered this.

    Everyone,
    Thanks for your comments :) They mean a lot to me.

    By Blogger Shannon, at 11/30/2007 9:07 AM  

  • {{hugs}} Shannon. I know just how you feel. When Daniel comes to us in the middle of the night and his first word is "sorry," I always feel so bad. I'd much rather be awake than miss the low.

    It is unfair.

    By Blogger Naomi, at 11/30/2007 9:29 AM  

  • big hugs shannon. It's never fun. It's usually scary. And it stinks.

    By Blogger Michelle, at 11/30/2007 9:40 AM  

  • That's one of the things that is so hard about this disease. You can bolus for them, you can check thier sugars, you can do site changes, but it's still their disease to live with. You can't take it away from them no matter how much you want to.

    (((big hug)))

    By Blogger Penny, at 11/30/2007 10:41 AM  

  • Crying in Boston pizza alone at lunch just sucks.

    Chris (on the road)

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11/30/2007 2:13 PM  

  • Big hugs to Brendon...the "sorry" gave me a lump in my throat. Boy, what a great kid.

    By Blogger Lea, at 11/30/2007 8:31 PM  

  • :hug: Seems like everyone went low that night. Must have been in the air or somethin.

    I don't know what we would do without that internal alarm saying "Hey, wake up. Something is wrong."

    The "sorry to wake you" hit me hard. Part of me is glad that I was diagnosed once I was independent. Then again, my mom's a very light sleeper. :-p

    :hug:

    By Blogger Tom, at 12/01/2007 4:54 AM  

  • Miles to go before I sleep...ah that struck a heavy cord;

    Life is unfair.
    Made easier by having love.
    He has yours and that is the gift that cannot be taken from him.

    I wish he didn't have this illness. Though as much as it chips at your heart..I know your heart is strong, and that those chips are raw diamonds.
    My thoughts as always are with you.

    By Anonymous http://www.willows95988.typepad.com, at 12/01/2007 6:58 AM  

  • You know I'd take it away if I could. Since I can't, I hope that B's attitude about diabetes will remain as it is now - that it's annoying, but he can deal with it. And deal with it, he does, bravely, amazingly!!!

    And Shannon, I can't imagine how this must effect you. I hope for a cure for you and my mom, I think more than I hope for one for myself. The relief you would feel, I think, might outweigh my own relief.

    Thinking of you guys. Lots of Love, Nicole

    By Blogger Nicole P, at 12/01/2007 3:10 PM  

  • Shannon,
    Brendon is so great & he knows what to do. You have taught him well.

    I had not thought about diabetes from the parent's side until I joined the Diabetes OC. I know how it hurts me when something isn't right with one of my kids in general. And neither of them has diabetes. I wish I could take that hurt from them & I know you would take diabetes from Brendon in a heartbeat & take in on yourself if you could. I can't imagine what you must go through on a daily basis. I hope & pray for a cure especially for the kids, but also for the parents of those kids, like you, so none of you have to suffer from this disease.

    By Blogger Donna, at 12/01/2007 5:57 PM  

  • This broke my heart. How he didn't want to disturb you because he was low just, well - hurt.

    I'm with Jeff though - that is why he is superman :) He's one tough little dood.

    Still ...

    Damned disease.

    By Blogger Jamie, at 12/01/2007 8:38 PM  

  • Damn it, Shannon, now I'm all teary-eyed.

    O used to apologize for waking me up. I told her not to do it anymore - it wasn't her fault that she went low or high or that her site fell out or whatever the problem was. She has no need to apologize.

    By Blogger Major Bedhead, at 12/02/2007 1:59 PM  

  • wow. sat down at computer. opened up your site. burst into tears.

    so damn hard that we can't take it off their shoulders.

    By Blogger Paige, at 12/03/2007 10:24 PM  

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