Diabetes Pissed Me Off To Tears.

Rarely do the day to day tasks of managing diabetes get my feathers ruffled. Sometimes I get annoyed by one thing or another, but it passes quickly and is seconds out of my mind.

But, for some reason I was in tears over it just now and my blood was boiling along with the water I was nuking in the microwave.

Who knew making hot chocolate was such a monumental task.

It snowed for the first time today and I actually saw a buck and a doe romping around my backyard. It was exciting for the kids and me to see...as well as the dog who was barking madly.

Anyway, when Brendon came home from school, he and the other two wanted to go out and play in the snow. They asked if I could make them hot chocolate when they came in.

My spirits were high from the deer and the snow, and seeing the kids playing in the snow anticipating some sweet hot chocolate to warm their cold tummies.

But diabetes had to come along and muck up a perfectly fine day and it pissed me right the hell off.

I boiled the water.

Poured it into mugs.

Pulled out a measuring spoon to measure out powder for Brendon.

Mixed it up.

Poured some milk into the mugs.

I wondered whether I poured enough milk to count the carbs.

I decided on a few carbs to be safe.

I got out the little marshmallows.

Poured some onto the scale.

It weighed 10 grams.

Had to calculate how many carbs 10 grams of marshmallows were.

They were 8 grams of carbs.

Had to add up the carbs for the chocolate powder, milk, and marshmallows.

I wanted to throw the fucking mug of hot chocolate right out the fucking window!!!!!!

Argghhhh!!!!!

I don't know why I couldn't cope. I started crying...not sobbing...just some eye stinging tears and a rise in blood pressure.

Anyone reading this is probably thinking it's only hot chocolate. There are worse things in the world that could happen....this should be your worst problem.

I don't know. Maybe it's that time of the month or something. I had second thoughts about posting this, but I'm doing it anyway.

Yeah, diabetes caused me to add a few more steps to a two step process, but it does that to EVERYTHING.

Add it all up day to day and you'll count about 500 trillion more steps than anyone else without diabetes has to take.