A Change In Perspective

Did you ever drive somewhere, say for instance to work, and wonder how you made it there? The drive is so incorporated into your subconscious that you could drive without thinking and make it to your destination practically with your eyes closed.

I took pause tonight during dinner prep and observed the scene in the kitchen because something had caught my attention.....

It used to be so obvious and a part our heightened consciousness, and the most significant part of our lives....

Now, it was so subtle, so inconspicuous, but still so significant.....

Brendon came in the kitchen and sat down, then immediately popped up again and opened his kit to test himself. He didn't have to be reminded by me, and he didn't wait on me to do it.

I noticed this as I stood mid-motion at the food scale with Brendon's dinner plate on it. I then realized I barely remember placing the plate there.

Like eyes blinking or heart beating, it was an involuntary reflex for him to test himself just as it was for me to weigh his food.

This invader of my boy's body was right then and there a part of our lives without us giving it a second thought. We weren't motivated to do our respective tasks because we were afraid of the consequences of not doing it as I had been when he was first diagnosed and for years after. We did them because it's so imbedded in us that it's as though we don't have a conscious choice anymore.

Diabetes wasn't such an obvious outsider at that moment.

Diabetes just....was.