Autumn Smells Good
I feel like crap this morning. I have a headache which is threatening to migraine on me. My stomach hurts. I feel sluggish. My neck and upper back muscles are tight.
I'm not sick. I'm out of shape again and I'm eating garbage.
Jeff was working out with his boss at the gym this morning. The Boss asked Jeff if I was still working on my triathlon training. Jeff said no, not really. The Boss asked what tipped him off and Jeff said, "I saw a box of Twinkies with empty wrappers scattered on the bed the other day." (Note to self: Remember to throw out the evidence of gluttony and bury it deep in the trash can before husband finds it.)
Recently (a couple of days ago), I ate a whole box of Twinkies in two days. This morning, along with a big cup of coffee and 2 scrambled eggs, I had a honking piece of chocolatey chocolate cake that I baked for Jessica's birthday yesterday.
I've always felt my best when I eat food that is as close to nature as possible. I have spring in my step, I don't get migraines, I don't mind doing chores around the house, I want to take the kids out and play, I scrap the sweatpants and t-shirts in order to wear nicer (but still casual) clothes, I put makeup on, I want to go to the gym.
As opposed to now where I'm wearing sweatpants and a stained t-shirt, no makeup, no shower, my hair up in a clip.
About a month ago I talked myself into losing weight and thought I had the mindset. I did lousy from the start. I'd eat like crap and say, "Tomorrow I'll DEFINITELY start the day with oatmeal." And then I'd eat leftovers from Applebee's instead.
Autumn is my favorite season and this year the trees are phenomenally vibrant with rich reds and golds and oranges.
But I can't enjoy it because I have to lay down so that my headache doesn't turn into a puke inducing migraine like the one I had last Friday.
I have a new challenge on my agenda that I don't plan to carry out until 2009 since it needs some major training to accomplish.
Lunchtime is when I'll start eating healthy again and put a workout plan in place.
Nothing like feeling crappy to kickstart a healthy lifestyle.